Yielding

Today I was dwelling on what it really means to yield to God. As I asked God to help me and show me what it truly means to yield, it was like a light came on in my mind. I thought back over the past three years of being Born Again, and how that the most yielded I have ever been in my life was the day I was on my knees, sobbing under conviction, and asking Christ in my heart. The Lord has showed me that at that moment, true yielding to Him was in effect. But, somewhere along the line I would make a mistake, and I would try and fix that mistake by my human reason and power, every time becoming less and less yielded to His true plan. I would make another mistake trying to fix the last mistake made, until I find myself now in an almost religious state. In a place where my faith isn’t truly on Him, but is too occupied with trying to figure my way out of my messes. Beloved, Faith and Yielding are inseparable. We are called to yield daily to the Holy Spirit, but if you are like me, I always thought that that meant I had to pray so many hours a day, read so many hours, and that is very necessary, but not faith and therefore not yielding. Before we can ever be filled with His Life we must yield, and this God can only live in the heart that says “Lord, I have made mistake after mistake… things I know is contrary to Your Being. I cannot wrestle this on my own, I have to believe you now. You are the only hope I have left. If I move in myself anywhere it could only be away into a religious life where you do not dwell. I simply give you total control of my problems and my joy… everything is yours… I trust you and I know that you will finish the work you started in me.” Beloved, that is yielding to God the best I know it. Just as we could not save ourselves initially, we cannot save ourselves daily. It is still a daily walk of faith in the working of the Holy Spirit. I am saved but continually being transformed into the likeness of Christ and therefore being saved continually. This has been something I have very much so wrestled with in my heart not being yet filled with the Holy Spirit. I am releasing my grip of my failures, and leaving them in the hands of the one that saves completely continually… Jesus. We yield by faith.