I'm Done

   Let me be very direct, and transparent today. There is times when we all come to a battle that seems to be so great, that we will never overcome. Lately, I have been in such a spiritual warfare. As I lay in bed last night, hell was screaming in my ear “just throw up your hands and quit. Your Christian life is over now. You have made too many mistakes. You have fell one too many times. The climb is just too high. The battles is just too rough. The days are just too harsh. You are too weak to go on. You make God look bad. You aren’t a real Christian anyway. The pressures of life are too great for you to handle. You are a fool to keep fighting. Just walk away, and say “I’m done!”

   I’m Done. …I am forced to say those very words now, at the time of this writing. My Christian life is over now. I have made too many mistakes. I hate to admit it, but the devil is right. The climb is just too high. I cant ever reach the top of this mountain. This battle is way too great for me. I try, and try, and try, only to make God look so powerless, and so small. The pressures of life are too great for me to handle. I cower at the first blow of hells breath. I crumble at the first sign of defeat. I’m Done!!! I am going to throw up my hands and quit!!

   Beloved, I’m done fighting on my own. I throw up my hands and quit, not to quit walking with this great God, but to quit trying to win in my own strength. I realize that the devil is right.. I cant do this on my own any longer. That’s the key. I must let go. I must give up on ever trying to reach the mountain top on my own. I must give up on being victorious in the battles of life on my own. Because out of this self-fighting, I take everything in my hands, and God is totally misrepresented through me, for His ways are so much greater than mine. I cant help but misrepresent Him while fighting in my flesh. For flesh is death, but He is life. So, I must stop trying to do it, and say, “Lord!!! I’m done now! I throw up my hands to you, to give you worship, and to let you take everything in your hands without mine messing things up. You live through me now, …completely. I’m Done Father! I’m Done. It is all you. I cant do it any longer, it’s all you. You must live through me now. So if I die here, it will be your will, because I am no longer doing anything on my own, nor in my human power or understanding. I’m done!!!”

   Let me ask you dear friend, are you done yet? Are you done doing things in your power, and in your ways of obtaining victory? Will you say, “Lord, I’m done with my ways, and I give myself completely to you. Live or die, I refuse to live my life in my ways and plans anymore. I’m done! Either You Live Through Me, Or Else I Die Here, Because I’m Done!!”

   Are you done, beloved?