I Thank You

Father, in the name and nature of your Son Jesus, I come before you today with nothing but empty possibilities. I don’t bring past experiences into remembrance at this moment, for I have feasted off the past much too long. I come not before you simply asking for a new spiritual blessing, but I come humbly asking just to know you. This day, I look upon my spiritual stance and see the great war of flesh and Spirit raging within my very being. My heart comes to cry with all assurance of faith, “just let me know you and live in this Spirit, filled daily as you desire to work within me!” and it is then my flesh comes back with an even mightier blow, trying to overcome you in me. I try to withhold from allowing discouragement to have place in my thoughts and actions, but you seem so far away. I realize that this war of flesh and Spirit that is raging within me right now will either make me, or break me. I love you, Father, and I love you Jesus. I so deeply desire to live in the fullness of your life. Over the last few days and weeks, I have been coming to the fuller understanding that just as much as I desire to live in your fullness… you desire to work it in me. O Dear Lord, please work your life in me! Fill me with your Spirit! I don’t desire to just be filled to dance and shout… I desire to be filled that I may know you as 1 Corinthians 2:9-10, “But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him. But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.” And that you may be pleased in living your life through my humble frame.


I feel as Paul in Romans chapter 7, verse 24, where he says, “O wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this death?” Dear Lord, this flesh is my biggest enemy. I am my own worst problem. The whisper in my ear has been telling me to compromise, and take it easy for awhile then pick back up some later time. This flesh of my heart is trying to prevail and bring me to death with you! O Father! I have tried battling with human reasoning. I’ve tried reading it away. I cannot out pray it! I cannot out study it! But I cannot live any longer with it! I simply cannot obtain anymore victory in myself. I am tired of me! I want this all you! I can’t do such a thing, but “I thank God through Jesus Christ” my Lord!! You shall work this life in me! Hide my life with yours, Blessed Redeemer, in our Father. I thank you, for I know as much as I long to know you, it doesn’t even compare to how much you want me to know you. As much as I desire to live in the Spirit, your desire for this is so much greater! So thank you! Thank you for working this work in me! I believe! I believe. Amen.