The Hungering Christian

Matthew 5:6, “Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.”

As I was reading my daily devotions earlier last week, I stopped and penned these words off the cuff in my phone so I could remember them. “Are you Hungry? - to hunger after the Lord= being dissatisfied in your spirit until you are filled.”

Yesterday while praying at altar service in church, remembering these words I had penned a few days before, I said a prayer that I will repeat publicly stating this, “Father, make me hunger you more. Make my spirit unsatisfied, and help me reach the place you are calling me.”

Beloved, I write this in deepest joy! For my blessed Savior has just now made this more real in my Spirit. He took the words of my prayer, and this thought of hungering after Him, and has begun to answer my prayer while I was unaware. After church was all over, and I was on my way home, I began to feel such a discouragement and inner pleading with God to bring me closer to Him. My spiritual man was feeling so far from God. I told a friend through text, “My heart seems so low in my chest. My mind races with choices to make. My eyes want to cry rivers. The Christ in me seems weary because of flesh trying to kill Him within me. I just simply feel discouraged. I have to write about a Christ I can’t even feel near me. I need to finish my bible reading for today, and still have to read my daily devotion. I am trying to cast all my cares upon Him… it just gets hard sometimes. I aint stopping, I am still pressing on. All my heart longs for is to live in the Spiritual! To live in a faith that overcomes environment and a life that is lived in His resurrection Life and power. One that is totally possessed by Him. Through the fire, through the flood, through the tears, the pain, fears… whatever! Even death itself… I just want to be living His life in fullness. My every heartbeat cries “Please!! Be my Life!!!” Oh all I want… all I desire… is Him.”

See! I was blinded to my own prayer. I prayed out of a true heart for Him to disturb my spiritual appetite, and He did… and I was almost so faithless I missed it. He sometimes seems so far away simply because He is calling us deeper. Sometimes we feel so much pain simply because He wants to fill us more with Himself! O the joy of knowing that such a Savior cares enough to disturb our spiritual stomachs and make us hunger after Him! For Him to do such a thing speaks clearly that He deeply desires us to be filled with His Life. I am so thankful that He is working that hunger in me! The hunger pains of the Christian are those intense moments when you feel the urgency to move closer and deeper to Christ. Beloved, ask God for a hunger and thirst after living His life. Be a hungering Christian… for only when you become hungry can you become filled.